I Wish

I wish that I could turn back time, not so I could rectify my mistakes (necessarily), but so I could relive every moment I shared with you.

I wish I could fly. Fly to the ends of the Earth and forget about these troubles. Fly above the clouds and escape the gravity of this sadness.

I wish I was loved by the unseen forces… Loved enough to the place where love would work out for me, instead of constantly eluding my heart.

I wish Pain was a person, so I could cause him the pain he caused me.

I wish she was mine again.

I wish I could dissipate and dissolve into the rain…

I wish these words were more than just letters organized in sentences…… Seemingly impossible desires that I wish would come true…

Rejoicing In the Light

So after gaining the emotional strength to look back on some important moments and words and gifts, i can say, it Feels good not being in that dark place anymore. I can see things more clearly now. Sure, my hearts desire remains the same, but my mind has a clear focus, a new way of thinking. I feel better. I guess I’ve found the light.

Anonymous asked:
what was your most intense sexual experience?

fightxtoxdream:

captcouch:

Sex on shrooms.

Everyone knows and talks about the visual hallucinations you get while on psychedelics, but your average person probably doesn’t do the same for the psychological experience you have. It’s such a bizarre, extreme, mind-bending wash of a cocktail of emotions. A lot of people can’t handle it, and if you can, it has the potential to change you.

You feel infinitely more connected to that other person on a raw, basal level of human interaction, but also highly self-reflective on a pseudo-spirtual level. The exchange and willingness to physically share yourself with another person, as well as their willingness to physically share themselves with you, takes a whole new meaning. You are aware of and understand the carnal need to reproduce and pass on your genes, but as a species perceived as intelligent, you understand other purposes, namely more symbolic ones, for sex. I felt a pure state of ecstasy, connected and disconnected, love, lust, and a strange sense of spite, as well as a loneliness of being stuck within my own mind.

On the physical level, it was very floaty, as well as feeling as if you’ve been thrusted into hyperspace. Your whole body already feels intensely heightened as it is: now magnify that by 100.

Did it ruin sex for me? Absolutely not. But it was certainly the experience that tops my list.

Beautifully written. Added to my bucket list

Outside Looking In (?)

Sitting in Easton…

Reminiscent mind..

Memories flood my brain….

Observing people…

They look so…

Happy.

Free.

Aimlessly walking around.

Laughing,

Loving,

Hugging,

Living,

And here I sit… Watching..

Note to Self (For the 300000000th time)

Dont’ get on tumblr in the library. You are not safe. Nobdy is safe.

actionables:

when you people like my selfies but don’t reblog them

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AT LEAST PEOPLE LIKE YOUR SELFIES QUIT BEING UNGRATEFUL, MY SELFIES ARE STILL TO THIS DAY UNLIKED BY MORE THAN ONE PERSON THE ONLY UGLY ONE IS ME OK YPURE ALL BEAUTIFUL I AM INFERIOR
I can only hope she is though….
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Reaching out to people and not getting that in return kinda sucks. Like, when is the last time someone texted me first? I don’t know. Maybe I’m like, super lame or something.

I’m really happy she didn’t forget about her tumblr. I’m just as attached to her blog as I am mine…. Lol

"If I was a bird, I’d fly away
Spread my wings, so I’d escape,
If I was the sky, I’d let it rain, to was away the pain.."
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Gotta work on my arms and chest… I dig my abs though…
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I’ve been working at this job, and I’ve been working out as well.I see Progress. I’m still skinny though, lol
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